Anxiety & Panic Attacks

Honestly, I'm starting to worry

Robb Allen — Wed, 08 Mar 2006 20:55:00 GMT

I’m not a hypochondriac by any stretch of the imagination. In fact, I’d say I’m one of those types of people who tend to pretend they don’t have a problem, even if I were missing several limbs and bleeding profusely. However, lately something is going on with me that I’m really, really worried about.

One of the medications my doctor gave me when my panic attacks first popped back up was Risperdal, but I never took it because of the fear of developing tardive dyskinesia. While Lexapro (the current medication I am on) isn’t a high risk for TD, I have developed a rather nasty twitch in my neck and I can’t help but worry it’s the medication.

While I’m sitting still, I all of a sudden get the urge to twist my head to the right. It’s an odd feeling and very disquieting as it’s involuntary and I can’t stop it. It only appears while I’m sitting down keeping my head very still (i.e. when I’m in front of a computer which is like 75% of my life or watching TV). So it might just be a pinched nerve.

Still, it’s a very, very, very odd sensation that is giving me the creeps.

Missing out this time around

Robb Allen — Mon, 16 Jan 2006 19:56:00 GMT

I’m not watching 24 this season. I’m under doctor’s orders to relax, and since each show is like watching a train wreck multiple times, it’s something I think I should avoid. Yes, the show is campy and far fetched, but it was very entertaining and kept me at the edge of my seat.

However, the last thing I need in my life right now is a thrill ride of a show to suck up even more of the limited time I have in the day. And I’m bummed about it. I guess I need to stick with reruns of Trading Spaces or something.

Panic update

Robb Allen — Tue, 27 Dec 2005 14:54:00 GMT

Last Thursday night I had a pretty horrible series of attacks which carried over into the morning. Missed work, again, but telecommuted the best I could (not everything works across our VPN). Really starting to fear for my job like I did the last time I had to go through this. My boss is pretty understanding, but she’ll soon be under pressure about my missed time and I’m completely out of Sick time anyway.

Last night I had some mild attacks while I was getting to sleep. I woke this morning and could just tell something was going to happen and about an hour ago I was hit with a major attack here at work, the worst since there’s no place I can go where I feel safe and instead everything is threatening (I don’t like to be around people when I have them). Took a 1mg Clonazepam and am waiting for the ‘zombie’ feeling that will soon hit me, but I can’t stop shaking or thinking I’m about to puke. I’m freezing and yet sweating like I just got through working out or something.

Man this sucks.